When guys thinks they can mistreat you . Don’t come around saying ur sorry with ur lame excuses after ignoring me for two weeks and still think you can treat me like I’m nothing. And then you don’t even wanna talk. I’m tired of this texting shit not knowing what’s really going on I needed a phone call at least but you tell me you don’t care for talking. What’s wrong with you I guess you don’t care for us anymore. It’s cool cuz I have more respect for myself then to sit around texting you there’s no point you don’t even wanna talk. I am not the late night text kinda girrl and you better know. I liked you sooo much but that’s when it all goes wrong. It seems like you changed , changed ur mind and I don’t like this person bc u used to be sooo sweet and loving I just don’t know what happened to us. But it’s funny how just when I was getting over thinking of us you come around and I tried I tried to reach out and just be there the best that I could. But then again you weren’t there for me when I needed you. So I guess we’re fading I’m just gunna be the best you never had.
I haven’t written on here in forever it’s cuz my computer crashed and little to no WiFi on my phone. But I’ve been sooo lost without my tumblrrr I thought I write something tonight. Ugh some customer at work thought I was pregnant what does this mean am I gaining weight I need to hit the gym ASAP ahh lol but shouldn’t let it bother me cuz I always had a stomach..is it from the soda I had over the weekend I really indulge and drunk alot of it lol cuz I went to a concert at great america couldn’t resist some soda eventho I’ve been good and haven’t had soda in weeks. I also think it was from the slice of pizza I had on sunday..Ah I gotta be more kind to my body. Lol. Ah also I’ve been pretty down lately…got really sick still getting over the cough…and this guy I’ve been talking to totally let me down. I was in such a depressed mode but now I’m better I think I mean he just decided to be mean out of nowhere and was like fuck it byee..I’ll never understand. I tried talking to him but no respond. So now gotta let it go. Let him be when I wasted all these months spending time with him just to find out he was gunna let me down easy. Never thought he would be like this. He always seemed so loving but he’s so cruel. Didn’t wanna be bothered but I really cared about him. Ugh why do I fall for the selfish ones. Now I just gotta start over.
another day i had to get a super rude customer ugh telling me im a bad cashier cuz ur freaking swimming pool thing isnt on sale if u actually read the label you’d see its the wrong one but go on and blame it on me…& my manager had to give it to her cuz she made a big scene smh ahh lol
I seriously had the rudest customer today! She seriously kept complaining about the store saying she hates it ok but don’t take it out on me :p she really tried telling me that I need to work on my personality when she came through with an attitude already. It’s always when they don’t get what they want her freaking swimming pool wasn’t on sale and all of a sudden I’m not a friendly person ugh people are so annoying and I can’t help that I always look awkward :p now I’m gunna watch teen wolf and forget this happened lol
i always knew your dumbass would come running back when ur bored. I should have known from the start that you were weird and insecure. Assuming that absolute worst in me, telling me that while we were talking i was having sex with someone else really though how could you even think that of me. Like dont blame your insecurity for the reason why you were so fucked up. I am so glad i got over you as quick as i did cuz i am so much better than this. And you wanna come running back talking about being serious cant even own up to what you did…dont tell me i wasnt serious you clearly used me and i am worth so much more than that.
why do guys get scared of me…is this a curse i will have forever?? Everytime i comepletely like/fall for a guy i go back to square one. he ends up running away & we dont get to finish what we start. Its like all of a sudden hes not excited to talk to me. Hes says hes not a texter but all of a sudden those are lies i just know it. something has come over him and i cant do nothing about it. I shoulda known from the start he wasnt that serious just a stoner that doesnt know how to be with a real woman. Like he has a lot of growing up to do. he needs to man up. Because i dont deserve to be treated like this i thought we were going to the next step become closer, and i was ready to be his girlfriend…he said he would take me out but those are lies too. this is the very reason why i didnt wanna see him in the beginning..i guess he was always just a flirt. And now i gone too far now he consumes me and i hate it. Im too much of a romantic to waste my time and see guys who arent serious. But somehow his charm stole my heart. shoulda listened to my bestie when she said i deserve someone 10x better. i am way too good for him. Like he was lucky to be in my presence. And now i guess we stopped talking since he wants to make excuses do his own thing. I just hate it cuz i really liked him. no matter how he tries to play it off nice i dont deserve this treatment. I was freaking amazing and hes an idiot…ugh why does he have to be sooo dumb! I am so dissapointed i was really trying and for a moment he was too! Next time he comes around i dont care im gunna tell him exactly what i wanted and what i deserve and i will never settle less than that. But i hate that its been stressing me & it is becuz i really hopelessly like him..